Emo Sat fer me..I'm having mixture of feelings of which none is positive. All I want now is to be left alone and find a space where I can vent everything..so here I am..and I'll not be sorry to anyone whom I'll offend in this post!
Maybe it all started last night when I was talking to my bf over the phone when my mum irritated me just to get me to take my shower. She disturbed my chat with him as she repeated the words i said to him and made some unnecessary noise until i got fed up and quarrelled with her just to shut her up! At the other end, my bf heard me using harsh tone with my mum and tried to persuade me to be patient with her and treat her nicer. i guess he didn't know the "devil" inside me. Well..I wasn't afraid to let him know that I can be vulgar and disrepectful at times when I get angry or pissed. Baby, I don't wish to hide anything abt me from u. Having seen the not-so-good side of me, u might want to seriously reconsider if I'm the one u really want. I wouldn't mind if u decide to leave mi now as I want to be loved fer who I am and I also believe u deserve someone better.
Just when I thought what happened last night was bad enough, today was worse. I smsed my bf twice in the morning and afternoon but he didn't reply at all. I smsed him fer the 3rd time at night when I reached home from work and that's when he finally called. By then I was already emo. Actually I shld feel better after hearing his voice, but i did not. He apologised and said he was too exhausted to reply my smses after a whole day of work. Perhaps I'm not understanding enough. But do u know what it feels like to be ignored fer the entire day? It was worrying fer me as I have loads of questions coming into my mind..say "What happened to him?", "Is he emo?", "What is he emo-ing abt?". Afterwhich I began to think of what could happen if he breaks up with me. Well..u can call me stupid or whatever u want fer having such pessimistic thoughts just because one small matter! I don't give a damn abt it! I just miss him badly..that's all!
The chat just now was bad..he tried to cheer me up but I was still as emo and my tone wasn't gd either. The worse thing was my family got v noisy all beacause of one bloody moth! Can't they just kill it with a newspaper or just leave it alone and fly away?! Another thing..my bro and sis were TKD-ing and spoke so loudly in the living room where I was chatting with my bf. Are they blind or what?! Hello..PLS BE CONSIDERATE! It seems like looking fer a quiet corner at my place to talk on the phone is a difficult task. Maybe one day i shld follow those Filipino and Indo maids use the Pay-phones at the void-deck! Haha..but then again these maid now have a hp of their own! :P
Sighs..hopefully my emo-ness will be gone tml..maybe going to my bf's place to accompany him as he starts his attachment interim report..maybe not? Depends on my mood..
为何要无话可说才懂沉默比争吵难熬...
Everything that happened on Saturday, May 24, 2008, happened fer a reason.
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New glasses
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