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Friday, October 31, 2008

Love Is Not A Single Side

Everything that happened on Friday, October 31, 2008, happened fer a reason.

Thursday, October 30, 2008

Just ended my chat with him and I ruined everything again. I know he was already v.tired after work yet he had to spend some time with mi on the phone before he goes to bed.

I really don't know what's going on with mi nowadays..I'm getting jealous so easily! Though I always say it's alright but deep inside it isn't! It's a good thing that he's always honest to mi..like earlier he told mi he gave a jar of jellybeans to this female friend and she texted him a super sweet msg which he even forwards to mi..Haha..(this haha is fake!) I had enough of his 2nd ex and now this..haiz..I really don't know.

He: Don't worry, I won't fall fer her..she's not my cup of tea.

Mi: Don't say it too early..u'll never know one day u might.

I also told him I don't like "competitors"..and the only way that I will not be able to have a "competitor" is to get out of the competition. IF the friend of his or any other girl ever falls fer him, I wld give up and leave..No matter how hard it takes, I will let go.

He asked fer the access to my blog again and he was kinda disappointed when I said I'll never give it to him..I know I have broken our 2nd love promise of not being honest to u. I'm sorry..I really am.

I've gotten used to not wearing the ring

I'm used to being protective

Will I be used to not having u?

blinded by tears..

Everything that happened on Thursday, October 30, 2008, happened fer a reason.

Listened to 883FM last nite
and came across "When You Believe"
by Mariah Carey & Whitney Houston
Heavenly!
that's how i wld describe this duet

I'm so in luv with this song
have been listening to it continuously fer the past 1 hr!
When You Believe~

Everything that happened on Thursday, October 30, 2008, happened fer a reason.

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

After tax lecture
Baby asked mi out to Vivo, along with Alvin and Belinde
Alvin drove us to Mt Faber
as we couldn't make it to Songs of The Sea at Sentosa on time..

Tonite was the first time Alvin gave mi a ride
after he got his licence few mths ago
and this reminds mi of a promise which I made to him..
that is to go drinking with him
to celebrate the passing of his driving test!
However we didn't have the chance to do so *pouts*
In return, he promises to accompany mi fer a drink
IF i were to fall out of love! Haha..
Will there be this day? :S

Baby see mi home tonite
On the way, when I was flipping thru his file..
He: Last time, xx (his 2nd ex) used to deco my file and laptop.
Mi: Orh..
He: So when r u gonna do it fer mi? (Asks jokingly)
Mi: 我不是她!! (I'm not her!)

Sensing that I was turned off by him,
He: eh..will u feel du lan whenever I talk abt her?
Mi: it's ur mouth..u wanna talk abt her then talk lor..

Come on, who will feel good abt this luh...
u can mention abt ur dearest 2nd ex fer all u want!
What I'll do is to keep my feelings to myself..
I don't see the need to tell u how i feel..
She is her and I am me..
Not happy then go look fer another gf whom u please.

"女人的幸福在于他真的爱我

男人的幸福在于她值得我爱..."

Everything that happened on Wednesday, October 29, 2008, happened fer a reason.

Sunday, October 26, 2008

Simply luv this weekend
Saturday was well-spent
Went to Sentosa wif Baby and his sec sch classmates
I felt really extra luh
but luckily the gals were quite friendly
watched them play Captain's ball
and joined them in playing Monkey
and the weather was SUNNY!
However I had to leave at 3pm
hence i didn't get to tan as much as i want..sigh!

Reached home at 4pm
bathed n rushed out to meet SiAo A
to attend Amy's 21st Birthday celebration
Several relatives n friends were present
after dinner we stayed in Amy's room
camwhore, camwhore and camwhore..Haha..
shall upload the pics when i'm free and NOT LAZY! ;)

Sunday..
Went down to Baby's place in the afternoon
took a nap with him
felt very comfortable lying beside him
especially when he suddenly hugged mi real tight
which i don't know why :P

Anyway i avoided 2 of his questions earlier
Qn 1: Can u give mi access to ur blog?
Qn 2: Why didn't u wear the ring?
Well..i really have no idea how to answer him..
if i were to let him read my blog
i won't be able to post my true feelings here
As fer the ring, i'll put it on again
when i feel that our love has become stronger.

能不能给我一首歌的时间
紧紧的把那拥抱变成永远

Everything that happened on Sunday, October 26, 2008, happened fer a reason.

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

Things are looking better, I guess..isn't it? But I still don't wish to give him the access to this private blog. How wld one feel if his gf doesn’t even allow him to view her blog? Hmm..he must be thinking if I'm hiding anything from him. Well..in fact I am.

However it's only my feelings that I'm hiding from him..nothing else. I think a lot and I don't wish to cause any misunderstanding between us again..Sorry bf..

6 mths..Y is it that I still feel insecure? Y do I keep reading his 2nd ex-gf blog? Y? Y? Y? Somehow I feel that his luv fer her back then is greater than his luv fer mine. It just reminds mi of bro and Serene where bro used to compare every gal with Serene.

Bf said before that memories will still stay in his mind but what matters is the present, not the past. Sorrie to say, I'm still not convinced. It's not his fault but mine. I'm just not someone who's easily contented..that's all.."爱情不能做比较" I still can't seem to get that logic in my freaking head!

有些爱只给到这真的痛了

只是回忆的音乐和还旋转着要怎么停呢

Everything that happened on Wednesday, October 22, 2008, happened fer a reason.

Monday, October 20, 2008

Went shopping fer Amy's gift with Devil FUN, Jing and Sam
finally got a watch from Swatch at Raffles City.
Had Thai Express fer dinner
and it's heavenly!
Esp Jing's jade-green curry chicken
and FUN's PINEAPPLE RICE!! OMG!!!
Let's dine there again soon kk..Haha..

Started my preparation fer exams today
began right from chapter 1
did a few practice computation questions
hopefully can try out the theoretical ones
and start memorising them!
Looks like my brain cells will be dead by the end of the exams..
Ahh..Faint!

After study, I went to meet Baby at his place.
watched mins of Hotshot Ep 13
while he cooked Glutinous Rice Ball (tang yuan).
Peanut-flavoured tang yuan in hot vitasoy
MMM..simple yet unique..
i liked it :)

Every little thing you do makes mi feel this way..

Everything that happened on Monday, October 20, 2008, happened fer a reason.

Saturday, October 18, 2008

HAPPY 6 MONTHS

Met him after his class

went to Bugis to get his fren's prezzie

food court was crowded by evening

so we tapao-ed dinner

and drove to MS

Headed home after that..

Before i left, i passed him a card which i wld give every mth

instead of getting "monthly gifts"

He wanted to read it tgt

but i refused

as the letter I wrote was a little saddening..

Anyway..I really hope we can go really far in this relationship

if possible, get married tgt..

Erm..that's too far away..haha..

I guess we'll have to see

if we'll still be tgt till the day he goes fer NS.

Everything that happened on Saturday, October 18, 2008, happened fer a reason.

Friday, October 17, 2008

Had a chat with Jin, my former AIA colleague, over msn..and this means i'll kena suan by him again..Haha..We haven been crapping fer quite a while ever since i left AIA..Oh man..I miss the fun days in AIA with the other 6 Princesses! :(

Viperine 战狼: wey
Viperine 战狼: u breaking with ur bf ah?
Viperine 战狼: haha
Phoebe: Hi
Phoebe: No
Phoebe: haha
Viperine 战狼: haha
Viperine 战狼: tt day saw ur nick
Phoebe: just that we got a little tired
Viperine 战狼: abt taking a break
Phoebe: but then dunno how he thot thru
Phoebe: so din break
Viperine 战狼: whahaha
Viperine 战狼: so early sianz alr
Viperine 战狼: break lah break lah
Phoebe: 6 mths leh..early meh?
Phoebe: quite long liao
Viperine 战狼: wa lao
Viperine 战狼: 6 mths can say tired
Viperine 战狼: u better stay single
Viperine 战狼: haha
Viperine 战狼: stop breaking hearts
Phoebe: oooiiiiiiiiiiii!!!!!!!!!!!!
Viperine 战狼: wey phoebe
Viperine 战狼: u like to quarrel with people one right
Viperine 战狼: kekeke
Phoebe: hmm..firstly, i managed to surive 6 mths is an achievement okay..
Phoebe: it's the longest leh
Phoebe: so give some encouragement can
Phoebe: Secondly, won't it be a waste if i were to stay single?
Viperine 战狼: whahaha
Phoebe: Lastly, i'm so innocent, ppl dun quarrel with mi jiu ok le hor
Phoebe: hee
Viperine 战狼: i meant, u can have more than one r/p at any time
Viperine 战狼: kekeke
Viperine 战狼: no need to steady with one
Phoebe: hmm..
Phoebe: u mean pi tui ar?
Viperine 战狼: haha yup
Phoebe: i'm not like that de lor
Phoebe: it'll only spoil my reputation
Viperine 战狼: wa lao
Viperine 战狼: reputation
Phoebe: my frens say i got the xian shu and xian qi liang mu face lah
Phoebe: dunno if it's a compliment anot
Viperine 战狼: i was thought not to read book by its cover
Viperine 战狼: n i find it quite applicable to u
Viperine 战狼: hahaha

After Jin, here comes the DeviliousAngeL FUN! Haha..

SokFun: dun nid to think of next time
SokFun: take one step at a time la
SokFun: now happy can liao
SokFun: dun wait till if "CHOY" breakup then think why last time like that
SokFun: then keep thinking then regret
SokFun: regret then emo
SokFun: emo then sad
SokFun: sad then cry
SokFun: cry then emo again
SokFun: emo then sad again
Phoebe: omg..
SokFun: sad then cry again
Phoebe: orhz
Phoebe: yesh mam
Phoebe: i get it le..

It's really tiring to be in this cycle where emo>>sad>>cry..oh well..

p/s: I can say almost anything now that my blog is private..Woohoo!

Everything that happened on Friday, October 17, 2008, happened fer a reason.

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

2 text msges sent and no reply
I guessed something was wrong
Thought abt it the whole day..
Are we tired of this already?
I didn't mean to have negative thots
but I just have this strong intuition
that we've faced a problem in our relationship.

Every morning, I wld sms him
even when I have nothing to say at times.
Sometimes I feel it's like a routine, a responsibility
instead of doing it out of love.
Sighs..

In the evening, he called and we chat abt this
as he was having the same thots too (since Mon)
"We've lost the sparks"
Will this be the end of our relationship?
We've to think of ways to relight the fire
and keep it burning.
However we're lost..

Hence we decided to give ourselves time to think through
And we won't be contacting each other fer the next few days/weeks
He: "When will this "MIA period" end?"
Me: "Well..fer as long as u want..but I'm not sure if I'll still be there by then."
He: "Hmm..then how? By Fri?"
Me: "Just let mi know when u're ready.." Meanwhile, during this period, if u can survive without mi, it goes to show that I'm not the one whom u need. This means we shld just breakup."
He: "Wah..How can u say till so 潇洒?"
Me: "Emm..cos it isn't the 1st time I'm facing with a breakup."

If u think I'm putting up a brave front,
then u're wrong!
Life has to go on
just find another guy and start another relationship
that's how life is, isn't it?

Not long, he smsed to apologise
and said he needs mi.
It's kinda amazing how things can change within hours.
Though he said he has thot through
I still doubt him a little.
Perhaps I'm being protective of myself.

I still love you..

Everything that happened on Wednesday, October 15, 2008, happened fer a reason.

Friday, October 10, 2008

Last night
MarshMaLLow celebrated Chun Rong's birthday
at Ten Dollar KTV in Chinatown.
Watched Wilbur's 转机 MV
as the Birthday boy was singing it..
Nice song but i like the MV more
though it's kinda sad..

Chorus

我放不过我自己
转一圈回到了原地
眼泪是一种提醒
我还爱你
让一切归零

我放不过我自己
仍相信爱会有奇迹
人群中我找到你
我抱着你
我们的爱情
还未完待续

Spent my wonderful friday afternoon
with Baby as he came over to my place again..
he came over on tuesday to study fer his test
enjoyed every minute and seconds with him..
sniff my 臭臭 and 抱抱
that's the best i could ever have! **Grins**

After our short nap,
i went to meet Sis EiL, Simin and Peimin
to attend a talk at Toa Payoh Hub
"Keys to a Smart & Happy Love Life"
by Dr Pat Love.
Interesting and very enriching!!
Overall: 4/5

Initially i thot Love is somewhat abt chemistry
however it was mentioned in the talk that
Love ≠ Chemistry ≠ Compatability
Chemistry is only the function of DNA
which is too chim
that i don't know how to explain..haha..

So what is Love?
To me,
Love is the wish to make someone happy.
Well..that's how the Eastern defines Love.
However the Western defines Love
as a response to getting your needs.
Well..i believe there's no definite answer
to what is Love.

Whatever it is,
falling in Love is easy
but staying in Love isn't,
fer it requires skill and knowledge.

Together is the nicest place to be...

Everything that happened on Friday, October 10, 2008, happened fer a reason.