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Saturday, February 28, 2009

想念如果会有声音
不愿那是悲伤的哭泣
事到如今终於让自已属於我自已
只剩眼泪还骗不过自己

为什麽你带我走过最难忘的旅行
然後留下最痛的纪念品
突然好想你突然锋利的回忆
突然模糊的眼睛

Everything that happened on Saturday, February 28, 2009, happened fer a reason.

Friday, February 27, 2009

Several resumes were sent out today
and received a reply from NIDEC
which is located at 36 Loyang Way
It's freaking far from my place
When Elaine heard abt it
and checked out the place fer mi
she burst into laughter!
She couldn't believe how ULU the place was
as it was like something
popped out of nowhere..Haha..
Well..shall check it out tml
hope I won't get lost :P

Fer the past few nites
I've been having dreams
which left mi emo
after I wake up from it.
was abt to go to bed
when Sis's "bestie" smsed mi
off goes my peaceful nite
chatted with him on msn previously
and I just can't take it
hence blocked him on msn
I know he cares as a friend
but I find it unacceptable.
Besides I don't think
we've not reached the term "friends" yet
we don't even know each other well
so that only makes us former schoolmate.

I replied his msg out of courtesy
and started chatting via sms
until a point
when i really cannot take it anymore
I forwarded the sms to Sis
and she went LOL!
I don't blame her
afterall I once teased and laughed
when something similar happened to her..Keke..

"it" was not shocking
but more of dumb can.
he doesn't know what love is.
To mi, "feel" is the basic element
No feel, no interest
no interest, no love.
Anyway I've drawn a line between us :)
hope I can have some peace again.

was telling sis
I would only consider
if he were Leonard or erm..Chester! LOL!
kk..I must be dreaming
well i think i should
off to bed now!
Nitey nitez..

p/s: Sita, I know u won't mind if I mention "Chester" rite? Hees

Everything that happened on Friday, February 27, 2009, happened fer a reason.

Thursday, February 26, 2009

Had an interview today
at Raffles Medical Group
chances of getting the job is 0
as there are many other candidates..i supposed
and my poly fren, Aswin, was there
fer the same interview too
wat a coincidence!

Sighs..
gotta wait fer my agent
in the meantime
i shall continue to email my CV.

Other than job-hunting
I've been thinking a lot
fer the past few days
and I'm back to where I started.

Before I forget
I wanna apologise to you
fer ignoring your calls
that you have made fer the past few nites
Sorrie.
I didn't want to answer them
as I was still sorting out my feelings
I didn't want to be disturbed.
Lotsa contradictions going thru my mind
but one thing fer sure
I hope we can still be friends like before.
AE once asked mi
if he and I can still be friends
after a breakup
why can't I remain as your friend too?

Well..I need more time
to let go of the beautiful memories
that you've given mi.
I guess by the time i do so
you would already be in NS. Haha..
Fer now
we shall see how things go bah.

心痛比快乐更真实

爱为何这样的讽刺

我忘了这是第几次

一见你就无法坚持

孤独比拥抱更真实

爱让人失去了理智

会不会是我太自私

拒绝更寂寞的日子

放不开也看不见未来

难道这种不完美

才是爱情真实的样子

Everything that happened on Thursday, February 26, 2009, happened fer a reason.

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

Sunday was great!
Amy, FuN and I went to ECP to cycle
it's been several months, nearly a year
since we last cycled
and I nearly forgot how to cycle
as I kept losing my balance..Haha..

The weather was perfect
hot and sunny..I like!
stopped fer a while
to take a rest
and started camwhoring! =D

Woohoo!

Not long it started to rain
so we stopped at a shelter
b4 cycling back.

After cycling
FuN and I bus-ed down to Changi Airport
to meet up with Hur
fer dinner and chat.

Hope the SiAo A will meet up soon again! ;)

Everything that happened on Tuesday, February 24, 2009, happened fer a reason.

Saturday, February 21, 2009

“It is better to have loved and lost
than to never have loved at all."
But at what cost?
Is it even worth it
to fall in love
and then lose
all the joy and happiness
of a loved one's kiss and caress;
To be held, to be hugged day after day.
To have it all just taken away
and in its place only pain left to stay
in a hole that was once a heart.

A heart that was ONE with another.
now no longer together but apart
now broken and empty and accepting no other
for the pain is too great.
And it's too great a pain
to let it all happen again.
No longer willing to love yet, nor willing to hate.
Just unable to let the heart forget
all the mind now regrets.
Was the pleasure worth the pain?
If so why does the pain still remain?
Is life still worth living
Yet not knowing
What is love, being loved, or loving?

To never experience bliss.
To never experience
and miss out on the joy and happiness
from a loved ones kiss.
To never know what love can do.
To never have someone love you.
To never get nervous and not know what to say
every time that certain someone looks your way.
To never know what it is
to fall in love and have that love grow.
Is it better to never have loved at all?
If so tell me for I'd like to know.

why do we never know what we've got till its gone...

Everything that happened on Saturday, February 21, 2009, happened fer a reason.

Friday, February 20, 2009

With the great help of my bro
I finally completed my resume.
started emailing several copies
to companies and agents.
just received a reply from Recruit Express
who has 2 vacancies fer Accounts Assistant
hence arranged fer an interview fer mi on Monday.
Hope I qualify fer the job. *pray hard*

Went out with Elaine
to accompany my Part-time in-charge, Jacelyn,
to do her tattoo
at Upper Serangoon Shopping Centre.
It was a pretty interesting experience fer mi
as it was my first time watching it upclose! HaHa..

p/s: Sis, ur "best friend" is being over-caring le. Argh!

Everything that happened on Friday, February 20, 2009, happened fer a reason.

^Just fer Bibi Sis^

Thanks fer the meimei letter
that u gave mi earlier
and the note which u posted
specially fer mi on SnowyHappiness
and here's my reply to u. =D

Just read ur list of 15 things
which we have been doing during classes in SAA.
Actually there's one thing
that u shld not do even when i'm not with u
it's #8 on ur list
No more reading of chinese novels secretly in class hor
Btw there's 2 more items
I would like to add
1. Pulling my ear
2. Throwing "mini snowballs" in XX
clue: XX is my favourite corner in Angsana 4! :P

See luh..
u've made mi miss u more again :(
Lastly whatever that comes ur way,
just face it bravely okies.
Take care~

Sisters forever...

Everything that happened on Friday, February 20, 2009, happened fer a reason.

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

Didn't attend lecture ytd
as I've already decided to stop schooling
went to SAA this morning
to fill up the withdrawal form
currently working on my resume
before bro assists mi in job-hunting later.

He called mi up last nite
to ask if I was alright
and I'm glad to hear that he's fine too.
All the best fer ur final exams
and enjoy ur trip to Genting with ur classmates bah =)

To my dear friends, don't worry
that call didn't affect mi much.
I was telling Sis FuN
that I have yet to pack up the gifts
and delete the text messages of the past.
I hope one fine day
I can really keep everything away
and put the unforgettable past behind mi.

我的心该怎么学会去适应那些没你的安静

我也想小心地收起所有回忆

却总是忍不住不断的翻起

爱开始了该怎么去喊停

i miss u. u're still my one and only.

Everything that happened on Wednesday, February 18, 2009, happened fer a reason.

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

我们做回比情人更好的朋友,好吗?

Everything that happened on Tuesday, February 17, 2009, happened fer a reason.

明天以后 by 林峰, 泳儿

泳:在你的记忆里面有一个我
在你最痛苦的时候陪你度过
难过过了天晴朗了我就走

林: 你拯救我的寂寞我的痛我的梦
在你的面前我不必保留
还来不及对你说
迟到的我的心动

泳:你的好你的坏
林: 我的脾气你最懂
泳:我不要你心疼我(林: 我不要你离开我)
合:明天的以后我们会懂
失恋的挫折让人变更成熟

泳:我对你感觉胜过爱情
林: 因为有你给我勇气给我用不完的运气
林: 其实也想好好爱你
泳:只怕到最后不小心让你伤心 (林: 我不怕会伤心)
合: 对不起我对你再好再亲密都不能在一起
林: 最后看你在别人怀里
泳:有天我会找到我的唯一(林: 我并不是你的唯一)
合: 还微笑祝福你

泳:爱情总让人折磨
林: 所以我们才选择
合: 做比情人更好的朋友

泳:我对你感觉胜过爱情
林: 因为有你给我勇气给我用不完的运气
林: 其实也想好好爱你
泳:只怕到最后不小心让你伤心 (林: 我不怕会伤心)
合: 对不起我对你再好再亲密都不能在一起
林: 最后看你在别人怀里
泳:有天我会找到我的唯一(林: 我并不是你的唯一)
合: 还微笑祝福你

Everything that happened on Tuesday, February 17, 2009, happened fer a reason.

Monday, February 16, 2009

A big thank you to
Elaine, Keith, Sis FuN, Amy, Bibi Sis and Alvin
fer showing your concern.

Amy and FuN surprised mi
when they came over to my place
Thanks fer lending mi your ears
though I had nothing to pour out
other than uncontrollable tears
Hope you gals will give mi more time to let go and get back on my feet.

Results were released today
Congratulations to Bibi Sis, Simin, Anna and Peimin
who passed all 3 papers.
As fer mi, I failed PMGT and Tax
Surprisingly I passed Law
despite only completing 6 out of 10 questions =)

Told my parents that I wanna quit ACCA
no point mi wasting $$ to retake
and there will be tougher papers ahead
I don't think I can make it
I'm tired of studying.
So I've decided to get into the working world

*Bibi Sis, sorry fer leaving you behind at SAA.
I won't be in class to laugh with you at our Lecturer's jokes
nor share your joy or troubles.
But I'll still visit SnowyHappiness
to see how you're doing.

Switched on my hp to text Amy and FuN
and happened that Alvin called.
Didn't answer his call and switched off my hp again
but called him back
after feeling bad abt ignoring his call of concern.
Thanks my friend
I'm not ok now but I will be ok in time to come =)

Just confided in my bro
about how demoralising ACCA is
my recent break-up and my LiFe
and my tears kept flowing uncontrollably again.
He gave mi advice on looking fer a job
and taking a break
before getting a degree at UNISIM.
Thanks a lot bro!

Everything that happened on Monday, February 16, 2009, happened fer a reason.

Sunday, February 15, 2009

Baby came over to pass mi the 2 other V-day gifts which he had made. This will be the last time I'll be calling him "Baby" as we will now be on a 3-mth cooling period from today onwards. Whether a not you will return to mi after this period is still a question. Therefore, to mi, it's not a cooling period. I would treat it as a break-up.

I don't wish to have any hopes during this period and get disappointed at the end of it. So I feel that we shld just end this once and for all. No one knows what will happen after this 3 mths. Only time will tell.

Recently I have been thinking what will happen to mi if we were to break-up. So now I'm kind of prepared fer it. However it isn't as easy as said. During this period, I have to get used to LiFe without you and all the habits that I have when I'm with you. I'm aware that LiFe will be like hell fer mi as I have fallen really deep this time. This break-up is much much ~~worse~~ more painful than the one with Alvin. Afterall this is my longest relationship.

My final message to you:

Thank you so much fer all the good times, pleasant surprises and beautiful and sweet memories that you have given mi during this 9 mths, which I don't think any other guys can give mi. Seriously you have made my LiFe complete though our relationship has come to an end. During this 9 mths, I have learnt a lot esp making commitments in a relationship. And I'm glad there's no 3rd party between us.

Starting from today, pls try not to contact mi as I want to be left alone. I will switch off my hp fer at least 3 days and also may not reply you. I'm doing this not because I hate you. I won't hate you like I hate you know who. I need time to get up and move on with my LiFe hence I don't wish to see or hear from you at the moment.

You have given mi 521 folded stars, 1 bouquet of flowers and 4 dozen of folded roses. I'm really touched though I wasn't moved to tears. As fer the missing 13, I don't know if I will receive it from you some day. But it doesn't matter anymore. What matters now is you work hard fer your upcoming exams and hope you can successfully get into your ideal uni. Take good care of yourself too.

521**14

To MarshMallow:

You guys are really a bunch of fun ppl. However I have to bid goodbye to our friendship too since I can't stay in Marshmallow anymore. Hope you 4 guys will survive the tough NS. As fer Sam, I'm not sure if you will be going overseas fer further studies, but wanna wish you all the best in LiFe too.

Alvin, I'm not sure if you still remember our deal. You said you would go drinking with mi when I break-up. Haha..but now I don't need it anymore. Sorry to leave MarshMallow though you once said we will stay friends forever. Anyway all the best to you and Belinda too.

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小猪 once said before:

"就算今天是不好的分手还是要保留住他好的那一面,
这样的话, 你会觉得爱情是美的。"

i've lost a best friend, a confidant and a lover.

Everything that happened on Sunday, February 15, 2009, happened fer a reason.

Saturday, February 14, 2009

Y HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY! Y

Went fer V day dinner last nite
as Baby is working tonite
Met him at GH after his appointment
and I was more than 30mins late :x (sorrie..)
Afterwhich we went to Popeye at the Flyers
as he hasn't tried it before.
we both still think KFC is better..haha..
Baby brought his V-day gifts fer mi
while I didn't bring mine
as I was too embarrassed of my art-piece :P
Hence we didn't exchange gifts last nite.

Instead I went over his place today
after his afternnon nap
to pass him the gift
before he went to work again.
I must say it's really difficult to get an ideal gift
therefore I made a pair of small ~~humpty-dumpty~~ roly-poly
also known in chinese as "不倒翁"
Till now I still think it's awful
but it's the thoughts that count rite? Hees..
Hope he will understand its meaning :)
Other than roly-poly
I also got him a card and 海角七號 dvd
hoping to watch it with him after his final exams.

Baby got mi a bouquet of flowers
this time it's not Champagne roses
but Sunflower..
that's something new and pleasant!
Liked it! Thanks Smelly Pooh! ^v^

Everything that happened on Saturday, February 14, 2009, happened fer a reason.

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

I finally started my first culinary lesson today
as Baby wanted to help mi with preparing dinner
Hence he took this opportunity
to teach mi cooking! AHHH...
he even bought vegetables, chicken, pork and prawns
as I have no idea what was in my refrigerator. Hehez..

After lunch
we started with marinating the chicken and pork
before started to cook at 6:30pm.
Firstly, we Baby deep-fried the chicken
followed by the sweet and sour pork.
Well..I must say watching him cook is easy
but doing it myself will be difficult luh..
must not be afraid of the splattering of oil,
must control the fire,
must ensure that the meat is cooked yet not overcooked..
Cooking indeed requires skill! ;)

Vegetables and egg with onions were next
and they were still manageable..
Finally dinner was ready..
Overall Rate: 9/10

Here's to Baby:
U impressed mi once again.
Thanks many much fer all that u've done today!
Although I was watching u cook most of the time,
I did learn a thing or two abt cooking.
Hopefully u'll be able to try these dishes
prepared by mi
after i've succeeded okie..Haha..

Alright it's time to go to bed
hug my smelly pooh
and smell 臭臭 to sleep..
Baby has sprayed his deoderant on it
knowing that I'll miss that 臭臭
at times when I miss him..Hees..

p/s: What to get fer V-day? what's something unforgettable and touching?

Everything that happened on Wednesday, February 11, 2009, happened fer a reason.

Sunday, February 8, 2009

SiAo A's reunion lunch has successfully ended
at FuN's place
where we had steamboat and lo-heyed!
We had a great time catching up as we eat
and the fun part was ahead
when we were treated to videos of SiAo A!
They were videos made by FuN years ago
which consist of our sec 5 days,
our first chalet in 2005,
SiAo A teaching mi how to cycle,
our first camping at ECP,
Amy's 20th and Jing's 21st bday video clips!
Our classic hairstyles and poses
really tickled us as we relish our past! Haha..

We also took quite a lot of pics today
fer the purpose of making more videos in 2009! =D

Later in the evening
Jing, Hur and I went fer a walk and shop
ard Chinatown before we bus-ed down to PS.
As we were feeling a lil' hungry
we bought Sushi from Carrefour to fill our stomach
and Jing couldn't get enuff of it..Haas..

Well..that's all fer a long Sunday!

Everything that happened on Sunday, February 08, 2009, happened fer a reason.

Saturday, February 7, 2009

New song fer my blog
pretty much describes the situation

that we're currently facing.

And to you,
the main message from mi is the words in red.

走音 by 黄靖伦

你的爱情在走音变成另一个旋律
我还在执迷拼了命去合音
你像下雪的表情是会过完的冬季
我把心划成火柴却看见漆黑的梦境

听见爱情在走音痛是太长的抖音
我不爱煽情但双唇抖个不停
本来幸福的主题怎麽唱成了悲剧
选错歌唱再用心也无力

Everything that happened on Saturday, February 07, 2009, happened fer a reason.

Had family dinner at home
followed by watching IPMAN tgt in the living room
that's our first family bonding session
planned by my Keith.
Enjoyed it! Thanks bro!

Baby, thanks fer coming over fer dinner too
and helping out to wash the dishes.
And I'm really glad that u poured out
all that u've bottled up in ur heart.
I really have no idea what I'm feeling right now
and there's nth much fer mi to say
as I've already said all that I wanted to earlier.

爱是不是都一样无论多漫长终究曲终人散?

Everything that happened on Saturday, February 07, 2009, happened fer a reason.